I’m late but I’m thankful for. God blessing me. I’m thankful for the parents God gave me. I wouldn’t be where I am with out them. They help me in need. I’m thankful for my friends. They hold me down and keep me sane. I’m thankful for employment. Its by the GRACE of GOD I’m working right now. I know its hard to find a job right now and I cannot forget how blessed I am. I’m grateful for mistakes and opportunities. Thankful to just…be…
My friends ask for advice dating. I really don’t know why.
I honestly don’t know more than the next woman. I just know some nigga tenancies. I suppose i have the most experience with a man rejecting me. I also know when a man wants his cake, the crumbs and some pie. I consider myself the crumbs. A lot, not all, of men my age want a friend who he can chill with and occasionally fuck and receive head from. Point blank period. Extra bonus points and coins and extra free life to the the “friend” would willingly play the wifey role while allowing him to freely feel up other close “friends” of his and etc. Most times you can get the vibe from a man if you choose to pay attention to your instincts. A lot of times he has been giving out signs, we just refuse to see them and we want to analyze break down every sentence and action a man does. Trying to read how he feels about you and most times incorrectly determine that him saying and doing one thing means he’s into you. I honestly feel that if he really liked you, he would try to spend time with you, take you out…in other words you should FEEL it. Then again what the fuck do I know? Let me repeat….WHAT THE FUCK DO I KNOW? I don’t really have advice for any female BUT if I did I would probably say don’t think TOO hard because chances are he probably isn’t thinking that hard about you. Actually I’m sure of it. He ain’t thinkin about your ass, well he actually MIGHT be thinking about your ass, but you know what I mean. He might flashback to that drunk sex yall had and how he could go for a repeat of that night. Chances are if he only compliments your sex he might not like you in that way. But women should play it cool and follow your instincts, not your heart (does that make sense?). And dating shouldn’t really be about games should it although I heard men love the chase. *shrug*
Sidenote: I’m not trying to date anyone, although I complain about wanting to. I’m pretty sure I don’t want to date right now. I think I just want a friend and maybe that friendship could naturally grow to be something more with no pressure. I said it. -_-
Is this therapy for me? This is kind of freeing for me to say these things…things I don’t like about myself. Exposing my flaws.
I have a widows peak. I hated it when I was younger. I always HAD to wear bangs with all my hairstyles. I like it now though.
I have stretch marks. I’m a little girl with TONS of them. Booty, thighs, boobies. This bothered me a great deal until I realized guys don’t really care.
My booty is black…hahaha I thought it was just me but that’s normal too. That’s one reason I can never get into wearing booty shorts (besides I think they are tacky anyway)
I have dimples. Well I have always liked these :)
I have crooked teeth. I hate them. I want braces. I had a retainer when I was little but my parents couldn’t afford to get me braces :( but I think I still have a nice smile :)
I have hair everywhere. I’m pretty 1970s right now in the winter *wink*. I’m surprised I don’t have a thick mustache and sideburns. My boyfriends never complained or asked me to shave. I’m glad they accepted me *shrug*
I hate my toe nails, I would say I have relatively pretty feet but my toes have a “situation” bc my friend wanted to go to this nail salon with a GRADE OF C. It was conviently across campus. Moral of the story is convenience is not always best. FML.
I wear socks all the time, I hate having my feet out. Socks feel so good to me.
When I wear my hood it’s like a security blanket. I’m trying to hide from something. (don’t ask)
My hair affects my mood. I could definitely do my hair myself. I walk around with an inch or two of new growth. Practice makes perfect.
I’m pretty critical of myself and others but it’s only because I know we could ALL be doing a lot better. I could be nicer about some things.
I’m very afraid to apply to graduate schools and not get accepting to any of the programs. But I won’t get accepted at all if I don’t even attempt to apply right? (thanks friend) Fuck it I’m going to do it!!
I have a weird friendship. It drives me insane…it is much like JD and Elliot from Scrubs. I judge their friendship even though I’m in the SAME SITUATION.
I am the Elaine to your Jerry.
I just came to terms that I am SCARED to get into a relationship. No, seriously I’m scared as hell. I have a mental block. Yet I want to complain about not dating a decent man. I’m the problem. Hazel <—-problem.
I have some pretty negative thoughts all the time… I have to cast them down quite frequently. Nothing evil…lol but just thoughts that prohibit growth.
I use to read the bible often but recently I have the hardest time reading it.
Not sure I’m entirely over my ex. I think I’m at 85%. That’s pretty good. IT’s been long enough.
Sometimes my family makes me feel bad for being single.
I wish I had perfect vision. All you people who don’t need contacts, glasses or surgery should NOT take eye sight for granted. I wish I would see with no aids necessary.
I could say negative things about myself all day..but at the end of the day I love me and a lot of these flaws forced me to become a better person. Even with all these flaws I have about myself, MOST of these things make me…ME. No one can be me and therefore since there is only one me I should be the best at it. No one likes to come out and confront their flaws, or fears. I think it’s just a step in the right direction to embrace, do introspection and change what we don’t like. It is an on growing process but you can’t change something if you are trying to hide it. Then again some things you can’t change…but that is what makes someone unique. And there is someone out there that will try to love you for who you are…weaknesses, flaws and all and may help you build upon them. Love yourself unconditionally. With some of these flaws I hope to change and become a better person with a better sense of self. Peace.
I'm falling off on these one a day challenges.....
Day 11 - A sport you love to watch/play
I absolutely LOVE to watch basketball. I like to watch people I know play it. Actually going to Moore gym was a hobby of mine this year lol. I don’t mind watching a bf play ball with his friends. I also always wanted to be on MTV’s Made and get made into a basketball player. I’m so serious. I wanna learn how to play but I think it’s too late. Well if I can walk and dribble without looking down that’s damn good.
Day 12 - Anything you want to post about
Will return with that later…(wait for later post)
Day 13 - Favorite season and why
It’s a tie between spring and autumn i like the cool lukewarm weather of both seasons but I love autumn because the leaves turn all kinds of colors and it just so breath taking.